Love is love, man

A couple of days ago, I shared this on Facebook. I think I shared it the day after DOMA and Prop 8 were struck down (YEEEEEEY!). My newsfeed was filled with love, happiness and everything else in between, and naturally, I wanted to share that feeling too to my friends.

However, a couple seconds after I shared the buzzfeed article, my old high school classmate (let’s call him Ted) messaged me and said, “Hey, I don’t like this post. Please remove it” I was in shock because for one thing, I didn’t think that I actually knew anyone who was so closed minded and would say that about something so beautiful, something so real and something not different from, let’s say, heterosexual marriage pictures.

Ted was never that person who would speak his mind. He would normally keep things to himself. So, when he sent that message,
all I could say at first was, “Ted?” I couldn’t believe it was him.
He replied, “Yes?” a couple of minutes later.
Then I asked him, “Are you really serious about what you said?”
After waiting another couple of minutes, he said, “Yes”. I was furious.
I asked him, “Why?” and at the same time posted a status (Now, I rarely post statuses) on Facebook saying, “I shared a buzzfeed article or heart warming pics of gay weddings. A couple of seconds later, a friend of mine here said “Hey, I don’t like this post. Please remove it.” Uhm, maybe I should remove you as my friend. (which I did) Soooome people” 

After waiting for what felt like forever, Ted finally replied and he said this, “Just kidding! Sorry” Ted is a very religious person. He has the star of David as his profile picture and he continually posts praise and worship songs on facebook and even on our high school facebook group. So when he said, “Just kidding”, that just pissed me off even more. I told him that this (homosexuality) was a very sensitive topic and that he chose the wrong person to mess with.

After saying that, he just sent me all these praise and worship links on FB which I didn’t understand why. So, I just really had to tell him off. I told him that if he didn’t like what I was posting, he shouldn’t have opened it and looked at it in the first place. I told him that he should respect my beliefs as I do respect his. And after that, I just didn’t really want to talk to him anymore so, I said I was done. He tried to add me again on Facebook, but I just didn’t really want to be associated with anyone like that.

A couple of minutes later, he sent me another message. He tried to apologize, but I felt like it wasn’t even sincere. All he said was “I do respect your beliefs. I’m sorry for what I did. I do understand. I get what you mean” blah blah blah But the thing is, I don’t think that he does or will ever will. I later on said that I couldn’t accept that kind of apology (I don’t think that even my LGBT friends would).

I then tried to tell him that the world is so much bigger than what he perceives it to be. The world is always changing and always growing, and his simple “please remove that” comment is still pulling everyone down because there are still people, like himself, who refuse to understand that love is love. period.

I’d like to think that this is not about religion – about what we are told in the Bible or any other religious book – not about beliefs – about what we are told what is good or what is bad –  but simply about equality…about giving everyone the right to love whoever they want to love. Love is love, man. Our LGBT brothers and sisters deserve the same right to marry, to express who they are, because they are not gays or lesbians, but people.

Me podéis llamar ‘Señorita’

(You can call me ‘Señorita’)

Today was my first official day as a Spanish teacher at Fountain International School. I had mix emotions about the whole thing. Mostly, I just wanted to teach already because I was getting immensely bored in the faculty room. (We were supposed to be at school by 730. My classes start at 950 & 10 something on Wednesdays.)

For my first day, I explained the requirements to the kiddos and started with our first lesson: getting to know you. Basically, I taught them how to ask for someones name, age, nationality, etc, as well as how to respond to these questions. It was as easy as I thought it would be because firstly, there weren’t a lot of Filipinos in my classes, hence, they don’t know the borrowed Spanish words, and secondly they didn’t try hard enough to get the lesson. They kept asking “Señorita, what does that mean in English?” “Señorita, what does ‘hablo’ mean?” “Señorita, what does ‘me llamo’ mean?” Most of them couldn’t understand the context clues which was a bit frustrating. I taught the lesson as simple as possible, but hey, it’s just the first day. It will get better…fingers crossed!

The first class I had to teach was the 9th grade. There were only 5 boys who wanted to take up Spanish from their grade. I was relieved that I only had a few students for that class. They seemed enthusiastic enough, and two of them already took up Spanish before in the States so the first meeting kind of went by smoothly. Their reason for taking up Spanish instead of Mandarin or French was that Mandarin was too hard and all the noisy girls all wanted to take French. haha.

My next class was with the 8th grade. 16 students from their grade chose Spanish. They were a lot more difficult to handle. They wouldn’t listen, they kept of chatting with each other, and when I would ask them to recite, they couldn’t answer because they didn’t know what to say because, guess what, they weren’t listening. In that class, I have one Japanese girl who doesn’t speak English (Lord, help my soul) and has the softest voice ever (imagine the asian from Pitch Perfect – exactly like that! haha) There were a few, however, who were smart enough to answer my questions. I might just rely on them to keep me sane.

My third class was with the 7th grade. They are so cute and little!!!! I have 10 students from their class. All of them are good students so far except for 2 boys. Both of them kept asking the English translations of the questions and responses. One of the was just raising his hand every 2 seconds, and the other was acting like that “I’m too cool for school-don’t correct me if I’m wrong” attitude because everytime I corrected the words he said he would get more annoyed each time aaaand he would roll his eyes one me! UGH the nerve.

My last class was with the 10th grade. Like the 8th grade, they were talkative (Maybe because they’re all excited about taking up another language?) I have 12 students from that class. As expected, they understood the lesson more easily than the other three grades. However, there are two Koreans in that class who kept talking in Korean soooooo I was kind of lost sometimes, but they were really nice!

It was just the first day, and I’m sure that things will get better and easier for them. I mean, I’m sure I was exactly like that when I was in my Spanish 1 and French 1 classes in Uni. So, fingers crossed for a better tomorrow! I’m teaching them the alphabets & magic (polite) words tomorrow! And to ward of boredom, maybe I should bring a book or my laptop so I can watch movies. lol Wish me luck!

Til the next entry,
xoxo
Samantha Jean

Living & Learning On My Own

If you’ve read my previous blog post, I’ve mentioned that I had a part-time job offer to teach Spanish at an international school here in Manila. I went to the school to go for my interview yesterday. Everything went okay! I was really glad that I got to let my best friend come with me 😀 I am now officially teaching Spanish at Fountain International School! weeeeee The academic director who interviewed me was Turkish, and really nice. Although, it was difficult understanding what he was saying because of his accent. He told me to go back on Thursday to sign contracts, and the parent’s orientation is also going to be on that day. On Friday, it’s the orientation for the students. That’s when they get to choose which language they want (either French, Spanish, Mandarin or Turkish). I was really excited about this whole thing…up until about 6pm today.

My mom and I were at the local spa having our nails done. My mom suddenly received a text from my dad. My dad was saying something like just because I found my first job that this is it for me. He thinks that I’m just going to settle with being a language teacher all my life. He told my mom to tell me that there are more opportunities out there, and that I should rush into things. My dad said that I can just stay at home and my mom and just keep giving me allowance. WHAT IS THAT?! SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN THAT TO ME.  -_- ( I get paid to bum at home? hahaha what is that.)

I got really maaaaaad. I told my mom do they think I’m stupid? Do they think that I don’t know all that? I told her I know what I’m doing, and I’m not going to settle for just the first job offer I get. I’m doing this to gain experience & to improve my Spanish. I also really really want to buy my siblings something with the money I earn. GUUUH.

I know they mean well, but I just can’t believe that they’re saying all of this. My parents can be the most controlling ones out there, I kid you not. My mom always tell me that my dad thinks that I’m still a little girl. Well, newsflash parents, I’m not anymore.

I need to learn the tricks of life on my own. I need to push myself to become more independent, and that’s what I’m trying to do. I hope that they start listening to me and realize that they’ve done their job wonderfully. Now, it’s my turn to figure things out. I want to be kicked and punched by life, no matter how frightening that may be.

Wish me luck, you guys 🙂

xoxo
Samantha Jean

LIFE UPDATE

I’ve totally lost the blogging flow I had a couple months back. But no matter, I’m still alive! After my last post which I believe was about my summer vacation in Boracay with my girls, there are a few things that I would like to share with you guys or at least have something to go back to so that I won’t forget what I did or how I was like around this time of the year.

MAY 1st – I turned 20! 🙂 It was a really nice birthday celebration my dad and I had. Family and friends came over to celebrate with us. Mom made a feast! She had all of my favorite foods and more!

MAY 3rd – My friend, Larrisa, and I started the #medyohealthyproject. I just thought that I wanted to live a healthier lifestyle now that I’m 20. I wanted to not let my body get used to the junk food I’ve been feeding it since I was 1 LOL. Now, take note, I am in no way eating less or starving myself. I am just trying to make healthier choices with what I eat. I still eat mini chocolate bars, smaller slices of cakes, smaller handfuls of chips, etc. Miranda Kerr said that you shouldn’t deprive yourself of things you want to eat. Just make sure that it’s in proportion 😉 (I love Miranda Kerr so much! lol) I’m also exercising more often than usual so that’s good! I’d have to admit that I lost the flow for like a week or so, but now I’m getting it back!

MAY 25-28 – I went back to Boracay with my dad’s side of the family who were here in the Philippines. It was one of the best vacations I’ve had because I dedicated everyday to relaxing, enjoying the buffet (hence to pause for the #medyohealthyproject), enjoying the pool, and all that jazz. I tried parasailing for the first time!! That’s really a big deal for me because I am afraid of heights. It was a good thing my sister came with me because I was just telling her to talk to me so that I won’t freak out as much. It was pretty scary up there! The thought of me falling never left my mind. But, at least I did it! 🙂 I also had one of the best spa experiences ever! At our hotel, they had their own spa. Aside from the actual massage, they had facilities that we could use such as the steam room, the sauna & the jacuzzi. I kid you not I actually lost 2 lbs just being inside the sauna for 15 mins. HAHA.

other days in MAY – up until now – I’ve been reviewing my french and spanish notes because I plan to study at Alliance Français and Instituto de Cervantes, two language institutions in Manila. I really fell in love with languages when I was still in Uni, and I’d really really like to master both languages.

Yesterday, JUNE 6 – A really good friend of mine and college blockmate, Jeune, called me up if I could teach basic spanish part time at the International School she’s working in right now. I was really excited and said yes! I told my mom first because I knew she would understand that I’d really like to this. Telling my dad was a bit tougher. I was sooooo nervous! My dad never really pressured me to look for a job because he wants me to study some more. Anyway, long story short, my dad said okay, and I’m going down to Manila on Sunday! I need to go to the school next week for an interview 🙂 I’m really excited about this!

I’m really happy that I finally get to do something, and it’s something that I’m really interested in! That’s what’s up with my life. I will try my best to blog as often 🙂

Til the next entry.
xoxo Samantha Jean