No, Really. Go Live.

At 22, I feel like I have the whole world at my finger tips. My best friends and I keep planning trips all around the globe, and as far fetched as they may be, we have to make it happen. We have to see the Pyramids in Egypt, swim in the beaches of Bali, fall in love with the beats of Rio, eat pizza in Verona, listen to the song of the mountains in Austria, walk down Via Dolorosa in Jerusalem, run on the Great Wall of China waving to the sky hoping someone will see us, and scream as loud as the lions do in Africa.


I know a 60 year old man who has to be hooked to an oxygen tank 24/7 because his lung (singular) needs all the help it can get. Walking becomes a chore. Staying in bed all day becomes the norm. He has lost muscle mass because he can’t do any form of exercise and all his physical efforts go into him focusing on inhaling and exhaling. Don’t get me wrong. He can still walk around but maybe just for a few meters or so. More than that, he has to catch his breath.

Just like how any other story goes, one day, he saw a picture of Machu Picchu on facebook. It’s a UNESCO World Heritage Site, and I’m sure that you, whoever is reading this, has thought “I want to see that someday!” He thought the same thing but added, “That’s part of my bucket list of places to visit that I am never going to see”.

When I heard that, I couldn’t understand what I felt. Pity? Sadness? Regret for him? Maybe all at the same time? I don’t know. But, I knew what I thought at that moment. And it is what I am sharing with you all today.

An average person has about seventy or so years to live, eighty-plus if you’re lucky. Many of us think that “70 years? That’s more than enough time for me to do the things I want.” In reality, seventy years can honestly feel like 7 seconds. One minute you’re putting on your black shoes for the first day of elementary school, the next minute you’re putting on your black dress shoes for a job interview. The next thing you know, you’re 70 years old wishing you could go see all the places you once wrote down on your list of “Places to see by the time I’m 30” or could do all the things you’ve postponed and said, “Nah, there’s always tomorrow”.

So, to answer the question at the beginning of this post, we have to make the trips happen for this reason: to not regret. I am slowly learning that once you say “no” to an opportunity, how sure are you it’ll come strolling down your path again? I remember one of my high school teachers telling us that Opportunity is this beautiful man with no clothes on (just go with me on this one), drenched in oil (no, really, it’ll make sense), and has a pony tail on his forehead (keep reading…). He appears to you all majestic looking, and you are then awestruck. He’s coming at you fast, and you have only one chance to grab his hair and go with him before it’s too late. If you missed that chance, that second, you’ll find yourself grasping for his arms, legs, but to no avail because you’ll just slip right off. Then, where does that leave you?

Those posts online that go “Life is too short, buy the shoes” make us go, “Ha, yeah right. If only I could, honey”. BUT YOU CAN. Maybe save up for it?

And it doesn’t even have to be about buying things. It could be finally jumping off of a cliff into the ocean, screaming at the top of your lungs when the roller coaster drops, seeing for the first time a wild penguin up close, or dancing in the streets late at night.

It doesn’t have to be an adrenaline rush thing either! Let’s say all your life you’ve always wanted to learn how to cook, paint, sing, or play an instrument. Guess what? YOU CAN. So what if it doesn’t taste good or your painting ends up looking like a 5 year old did it? Practice and keep searching for what you’re good at, and at least you’ll be able to say, “Haha, at least I’ve done it”.

But make sure you’re not hurting anybody or doing something illegal. Maybe don’t rob a store. Maybe… you shouldn’t curse that man for cutting you off. Opportunity isn’t waiting for you down that road.

Make your own sentence that fits you and your story. “Life is short,…” Don’t make the common mistake of waiting and then suddenly regretting. Just be smart, and really, go live.



What’s going on with my life since my last post? Was I able to enroll? Are the professors giving me hell? Am I regretting my choice of going back to school?

School started a few weeks ago (and I guess you can infer that, yes, I was able to enroll YEY : ) , but the enrollment process has been THE most tiring and frustrating one I’ve ever had to encounter in my life.), and everything’s just going steady and smooth.

I’m taking both French and Spanish classes, but I wasn’t able to enroll in the classes that I should take to continue on with what I already took up in Ateneo because the European Languages Department at UP said that I had to go back a week after the regular enrollment schedule to ask (again) if I can take the classes that I needed to take. If they decide that I can enroll, I have to take a placement test. But here’s the thing, they’re not sure that I’m going to have a slot left by the time that I would’ve gone back to talk to them because regular enrollment finished already, and when I saw the slots on the computer, there were only 1 or 2 slots left in all the classes. So, the woman who I talked to just advised me to take the basic classes again for review and mastery. So, that’s what I’m doing now.

My schedule’s pretty light. My classes are from Tuesdays to Fridays. My day starts at 10:00am, and I get off at 2:30pm everyday. Not bad at all. I’ve made a few friends, but I don’t hang out  with them during my break because they have their own schedules, cliques, etc… I’m fine with that. I’ve always been the type of person that likes to be with people but can also survive when I’m on my own. During my break, which is an hour and a half, if my best friend is free, we have lunch together or I usually go to the nearest Starbucks to rewrite my notes, do homework, fix my schedule, read, draw…whatever really.

I’ve joined two organizations in UP: Le Club Français and UP Dancesport Society. I can’t wait for the org activities to start because then at least I’ll have more things to do, and I get to meet new people which is always a plus.

Hmmmm what else? Aside from school, I’m still dancing yyeeeeey! I’m rehearsing with Miss Jill Ngo, the best belly dancer in the country, for a belly dance recital on October 11! I’m really excited for that one : )

But right now, I’m just cruising, really. I’ve set my mind to think and focus on my goals everyday, and I feel like I’m at a good place right now. We’ll see.

‘Til the next entry, xoxo


Halfway Through with 2014!

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This is what the first half of my 2014 looks like!

1st row: New year’s with Larrisa, first party of the year with my college barkada, watched Wicked, roaring 20’s debut with my dance friends, judged another PE finals 

2nd row: picture with my students <3, Ateneo Bonfire, FIS Class of 2014 graduation faculty “We did it” picture, ice skating with my co-teachers, karaoke with my college barkada

3rd row: @ Larrisa’s debut with Baguio people, then with Bea and Lar, La Union trip with my family, visit to Dinosaur Island with my siblings : ), Easter Sunday picture with both my sisters

4th row: drinking session with my cousins & siblings, Powerdance Workshop pictorial, 1st complete picture of my siblings and I with our dad : ), saying bye to my Ate and her family at the airport, Boracay 2014 with my siblings and our dad

5th row: Island hopping with my family, went ziplining for the first time!! and blew the candle from my birthday cake : ), Hamada family picture by the beach, birthday dinner with my college friends, and random dinner with them. 

So far, I feel like my year has been a smooth sailing one. I’ve learned to just take everything all in (not all at once though!) by just being more open to whatever comes my way. What’s your year looking like?

I swear, I lived.

I fell in love with this song the first time I listened to it. It gives me the right push that I cannot give myself to go about my day. I am automatically placed in a better mood after listening to this song because it reminds me that I’m only 20 years old. Now, I don’t say that in a bragging way if any of you were offended. I literally mean that I am just 20 years old. Meaning, I have time to travel, to meet new people, to dance, to overcome fears, to build a career, and whatever else I can do.

I’ve made the mistake of trying to figure life in general immediately countless of times which leads me to panic, and I feel like I just end up looking at things instead of seeing and experiencing them for what they are.  But, I’m learning from that mistake now. This song helps me overcome that.

When I’m 80, I will utter the words, “I swear, I lived”. But for now, 60 years prior to that, I will Carpe-the-shit-out-of-the-Diem and go by the words I wrote on my college yearbook, “…no regrets, just lessons learned and a lot of fun”.

30 Day Travel Challenge

I did the 30 day music challenge before, and I missed having to post at least something on my blog everyday. So, I thought, why not do another one of those 30 Day Challenges. This time, I’m doing a challenge that’s close to my heart: travelling. I thought that this could be another thing that would keep me busy. Here’s the list if you want to do it too! 🙂

Day #1 – Your favorite travel destination

Day #2 – A destination where you love the culture.

Day #3– The travel destination that makes you happy

Day #4 – The travel destination that makes you laugh.

Day #5 – A travel destination that reminds you of someone.

Day #6 – A travel destination where you love the food.

Day#7 – A travel destination where you love the people.

Day #8 – A travel destination where you know all/most of the sights.

Day #9 – A travel destination with great beer.

Day #10 – A relaxing travel destination.

Day #11 – A travel destination that reminds you of your favorite band or music video.

Day #12 – A travel destination you don’t see the appeal in.

Day #13 – A travel destination that is a guilty pleasure.

Day #14 – A travel destination that nobody would expect you to love.

Day #15 – A travel destination that best describes you.

Day #16 – A travel destination that you used to love, but now hate.

Day #17 – A travel destination that you always hear about on Facebook or TV.

Day #18 – A travel destination that you should hear about on Facebook or TV.

Day #19 – FREE SPOT! talk about any place!

Day #20 – A place you go when you’re angry.

Day #21 – A place you go when you’re happy.

Day #22 – A place you go when you’re sad.

Day #23 – A travel destination for your wedding.

Day #24 – A travel destination for your honeymoon.

Day #25 – FREE SPOT! Talk about any place!

Day #26 – A destination that makes you want to keep fit and healthy.

Day #27 – A place you’ll go if you become a millionaire.

Day #28 – A travel destination that inspires you.

Day #29 – A travel destination from your childhood.

Day #30 – The place you grew up.

Can’t wait to read your posts, and I can’t wait to post mine too!

“Well, I hope you know you have all the time in the world.”

My dad texted me that after I asked my parents, for the first time, if I could have dinner with Marco on Tuesday. His mom’s making BBQ ribs or something along those lines.

He got mad at me a couple of months ago and said, “Why do you have to rush? You’re smart and you have this whole future ahead of you!!!” My friends said it’s not like liking someone is going to compromise my future. I know that. He knows that. It’s like in the Top 10 Rules in whatever book it’s supposed to be in. I have my dreams and goals, and they still have not changed even when Marco walked into the picture. I still want to go to Europe. I still want to do everything on that things to do before you die list. So, relax, Dad.

First of all, it’s not like I’m getting married tomorrow.  It’s not like I’m moving to Seattle and starting a whole new life. I’m 20, and I know I have the world at my fingertips. Just let me be.   Second of all, this is all just normal stuff, isn’t it? (Isn’t it?) Boy likes girl-girl likes boy kind of stuff. Lastly, I’m happy. I hope you could see that.

Well, I guess this is a normal thing for dads, right? He can’t help but to be super over protective, especially towards his daughters.

But, enough on feeling blaah about what my dad said. They both allowed me to have dinner with Marco & his family anyway. So, yeeeeey 🙂 Baby steps. Wish me luck!


Living & Learning On My Own

If you’ve read my previous blog post, I’ve mentioned that I had a part-time job offer to teach Spanish at an international school here in Manila. I went to the school to go for my interview yesterday. Everything went okay! I was really glad that I got to let my best friend come with me 😀 I am now officially teaching Spanish at Fountain International School! weeeeee The academic director who interviewed me was Turkish, and really nice. Although, it was difficult understanding what he was saying because of his accent. He told me to go back on Thursday to sign contracts, and the parent’s orientation is also going to be on that day. On Friday, it’s the orientation for the students. That’s when they get to choose which language they want (either French, Spanish, Mandarin or Turkish). I was really excited about this whole thing…up until about 6pm today.

My mom and I were at the local spa having our nails done. My mom suddenly received a text from my dad. My dad was saying something like just because I found my first job that this is it for me. He thinks that I’m just going to settle with being a language teacher all my life. He told my mom to tell me that there are more opportunities out there, and that I should rush into things. My dad said that I can just stay at home and my mom and just keep giving me allowance. WHAT IS THAT?! SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN THAT TO ME.  -_- ( I get paid to bum at home? hahaha what is that.)

I got really maaaaaad. I told my mom do they think I’m stupid? Do they think that I don’t know all that? I told her I know what I’m doing, and I’m not going to settle for just the first job offer I get. I’m doing this to gain experience & to improve my Spanish. I also really really want to buy my siblings something with the money I earn. GUUUH.

I know they mean well, but I just can’t believe that they’re saying all of this. My parents can be the most controlling ones out there, I kid you not. My mom always tell me that my dad thinks that I’m still a little girl. Well, newsflash parents, I’m not anymore.

I need to learn the tricks of life on my own. I need to push myself to become more independent, and that’s what I’m trying to do. I hope that they start listening to me and realize that they’ve done their job wonderfully. Now, it’s my turn to figure things out. I want to be kicked and punched by life, no matter how frightening that may be.

Wish me luck, you guys 🙂

Samantha Jean


I’ve totally lost the blogging flow I had a couple months back. But no matter, I’m still alive! After my last post which I believe was about my summer vacation in Boracay with my girls, there are a few things that I would like to share with you guys or at least have something to go back to so that I won’t forget what I did or how I was like around this time of the year.

MAY 1st – I turned 20! 🙂 It was a really nice birthday celebration my dad and I had. Family and friends came over to celebrate with us. Mom made a feast! She had all of my favorite foods and more!

MAY 3rd – My friend, Larrisa, and I started the #medyohealthyproject. I just thought that I wanted to live a healthier lifestyle now that I’m 20. I wanted to not let my body get used to the junk food I’ve been feeding it since I was 1 LOL. Now, take note, I am in no way eating less or starving myself. I am just trying to make healthier choices with what I eat. I still eat mini chocolate bars, smaller slices of cakes, smaller handfuls of chips, etc. Miranda Kerr said that you shouldn’t deprive yourself of things you want to eat. Just make sure that it’s in proportion 😉 (I love Miranda Kerr so much! lol) I’m also exercising more often than usual so that’s good! I’d have to admit that I lost the flow for like a week or so, but now I’m getting it back!

MAY 25-28 – I went back to Boracay with my dad’s side of the family who were here in the Philippines. It was one of the best vacations I’ve had because I dedicated everyday to relaxing, enjoying the buffet (hence to pause for the #medyohealthyproject), enjoying the pool, and all that jazz. I tried parasailing for the first time!! That’s really a big deal for me because I am afraid of heights. It was a good thing my sister came with me because I was just telling her to talk to me so that I won’t freak out as much. It was pretty scary up there! The thought of me falling never left my mind. But, at least I did it! 🙂 I also had one of the best spa experiences ever! At our hotel, they had their own spa. Aside from the actual massage, they had facilities that we could use such as the steam room, the sauna & the jacuzzi. I kid you not I actually lost 2 lbs just being inside the sauna for 15 mins. HAHA.

other days in MAY – up until now – I’ve been reviewing my french and spanish notes because I plan to study at Alliance Français and Instituto de Cervantes, two language institutions in Manila. I really fell in love with languages when I was still in Uni, and I’d really really like to master both languages.

Yesterday, JUNE 6 – A really good friend of mine and college blockmate, Jeune, called me up if I could teach basic spanish part time at the International School she’s working in right now. I was really excited and said yes! I told my mom first because I knew she would understand that I’d really like to this. Telling my dad was a bit tougher. I was sooooo nervous! My dad never really pressured me to look for a job because he wants me to study some more. Anyway, long story short, my dad said okay, and I’m going down to Manila on Sunday! I need to go to the school next week for an interview 🙂 I’m really excited about this!

I’m really happy that I finally get to do something, and it’s something that I’m really interested in! That’s what’s up with my life. I will try my best to blog as often 🙂

Til the next entry.
xoxo Samantha Jean

Summer 2013

I’ve been MIA for a couple of days because I haven’t had the time to blog or I couldn’t think of anything interesting to blog about. lol. Anyway, I’d just like to share to you guys my trip last week with a few of my friends.

I was living the modern island life from April 11-16. We went to Boracay, a really famous island in our country (you guys should go there for vacation!!! :D)  from the 11th-14th and travelled to Antique (a province in the Philippines) and stayed there from the 14th-16th. It was a much needed vacation after all the college stress and what not, and I’m glad I got to spend time with my girls, so that’s a plus! 🙂

Here are pictures from our trip!

DSC03909We spent our first day just chilling by the beach. We were still waiting for two of our friends to arrive later that night. 


You can’t ask for anything more. 


Our succeeding days was always filled with activities. First up, we went snorkelling. Props to my friend, Zeh, for this picture! 


The rest of the group…bubbles everywhere! lol 


This experience deserves two thumbs up! 


After snorkelling, our tour guide brought us to a different part of the island. The view was just breathtaking, I mean, all you could see was the sea, sure, but the color and the calmness of it all…just priceless. 


I’d love to wake up to this everyday. That’s me with by London Buddy, Trisha 🙂 


After taking the pics above, we decided to swim in the beach 


An artsy fartsy-ish picture for you guys HAHA That’s Trisha, Sophie and Karen reflected on my sunglasses from F21. 


Next up, we went Helmet Diving. The only downside to this activity is that the pressure on your ears hurt like hell! It goes away though, so don’t worry 🙂 


After all the activities for that day, we decided to have a staged chicken fight lol 


We chose to chill by the beach while waiting for the party to start 


And of course, a trip out with your girls wouldn’t be complete without going to a party! 

The next few days on the island was just spent chilling, walking around, eating, and a bunch of other activities which we failed to document. lol After our stay in Boracay, we took a boat ride to the main island and drove for an hour or so to Antique.


We went on a mini trek twice. The first one was to see the end of a river, I think (LOL), the second one was to see the Bugtong Bato Waterfall. 






Our guide climbed the Coconut tree, cut off a few branches and voilà! Fresh coconut! 🙂 
544072_10151335232767245_983292575_nIt was so yummy! 🙂 


This was taken on our second day in the province. Like I said earlier, we went on another trek to reach the falls. 


The water was freezing cold, but it felt so nice to be in it. Our photographer had a part of her finger on the camera lens, hence the picture haha


After the trek, we had lunch and went kayaking on the slightly flowing river. The river was too shallow, as in our kayaks were just hitting the rocks, but nonetheless, it was a fun experience 🙂 


This is a Kawa. It’s like a hot bath. They filled it with really really hot water and leaves and flowers that smell heavenly. We wanted to create an ad like picture. Were we successful? haha



Sophie and I were directly above the fire so we could really feel the heat. 


After the hot bath, we went to another place where they had a Fish Spa. The fishes nibble on you removing dead skin. At first it’s really ticklish, like you can’t even imagine, but later on, you won’t even feel a thing. I highly recommend this!


On April 16, it was time to say goodbye to the chill life. 



Those couple of days spent with the best people ever was more than I could ever ask for. I enjoyed their company and all the activities that we did together. I’m looking forward to the day when we’ll all have enough money to have vacations outside the country. HAHA Time to save up, girls. Next up, Europe. (Hey, a girl can dream, right? 😉 )

Til The Next Entry,

Samantha Jean

P.S. pictures taken by Zeh, Diana and myself

¡Feliz Cumpleaños, Chica!



Happy happy birthday to one of the strongest, most independent, wildest person I know! You’re 22 years old now, but it doesn’t seem that way. It’s like you’re 14, 16, 25, 30, 2, and sometimes 40. I’m not talking about how you look, because Mother, you look daaaamn fine. I’m talking about how you think and act. You can be the most sabaw person in the room or you could be the most intellectual, mature person too.

I will never forget how we bonded over Harry Potter and most especially, the Potter Musicals on Youtube. I will never forget how we would always click ‘next page’ on Tumblr until we feel like zombies. I will never forget how we YOLOed Betos’ class because it was the most boring class we ever took. ever. in our lives. period. I will never forget how you’d always live tweet everything that you do. I’ll never forget about that night when our Austrian friends came over. (never again. NEVER AGAIN.)

Thank you for always offering your car when we go out on our block dates. HAHA. Thank you for always feeding us with Mama D’s baked goodies. Thank you for always being so supportive if at least one of us does something amazing or achieves something great. Even if we did something stupid, you’d still stand by us. Thank you so much for that.

You’ve taught me so much…From how to pack lightly, to IR stuff for school, to love life and relationships. We don’t call you Mother Mima for nothing. We go to you for advice because we know that you’ll never fail us! I’m so happy you’re permanently (YES YOU CAN NEVER LEAVE) in my life.

I wish you all the best and good luck in your final year as a college student. I cannot wait until I get to see you again and laugh about the most random things on the internet! I miss you so much, Mother! I hope you’re having the time of your life right now. How’s the kangaroo? ; )

!Feliz cumpleaños, Chica! Te amo : )